i'm going through a lot right now. frantically trying to finish my third submission for Bath and just got home from Phoenix in Mililani. i had a really rough day at school yesterday, which has resulted in some terrible times at school. i also realized that i have to reapply to 'Iolani if i want to teach there next year -- and i'm still not sure if i do. i don't want to deal with rejection right now. i'd prefer almost to just sub for a year and be a poor writer, like i should be and said i would try to be. i'm feeling altogether overwhelmed, tired, upset, and anxious.
and i have a cold with a terrible cough.
i feel like i'm going to explode.